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newdaydawning79Hmm...I might have to go to work today, I might not have to go to work today. I don't know yet. lol
Michelle called and left a message while I was off seeing Chicago asking if I could fill in if Sarah can't work tomorrow. So I'm 'on-call' for the day. Go me. :) The good things about this are: 1. Gets me out of the house. 2. It will put me over 40 hours for this week. 3. It shows I'm dependable and responsible, which will look good if I'm still working there if/when they open the new store. I'm all about being promoted (again) asap. It's a decent job while I look for something better. *g*
Speaking of, Chicago...I *loved* it. Although the people behind me made me want to smack them a couple times, I absolutely loved the movie. Now I want to go to NYC and see the real thing. LOL But I don't have the money right now. Student loans have to be paid this coming week, and I have a very special birthday to plan for. So a trip to NYC will have to wait. Hell, at the rate I'm going, it won't be til at least mid to late April or May before I could consider it. Too much going on.
I'm becoming obsessive about my weight again, and not in a good way. At least I'm realizing it. It's mainly that I'm just weighing myself every other second. I'm not killing myself exercising or starving myself...both things I've done in the past.
I used to be told that I needed to lose weight or else I wouldn't get a job or find a steady relationship. Like no one could like me for the things on the inside. And that has stuck with me in the back of my head, even though I have both of those things in my life now. It's a huge insecurity issue, that goes hand-in-hand with my feelings of unworthiness. It makes me jealous and bitchy and then I end up pushing people away because they can't deal with it. And the people that I have in my life now, I would do anything for that to *not* happen with.
There needs to be a way to reprogram a brain. Just write a little program, hit a button and *poof*! LOL
Aside from my rambles, I'm in a great mood. Got a good night's sleep, spent the weekend catching up with friends that I haven't talked to much in awhile. I need to go through about a million tapes of SDB footage today to find a specific tape (I wish so much that I had marked these damn things) and get it ready to mail back to Tennessee. I will start that shortly...hopefully I can find it before Michelle calls me (if she calls me anyway).
Must go feed the critter now!
Michelle called and left a message while I was off seeing Chicago asking if I could fill in if Sarah can't work tomorrow. So I'm 'on-call' for the day. Go me. :) The good things about this are: 1. Gets me out of the house. 2. It will put me over 40 hours for this week. 3. It shows I'm dependable and responsible, which will look good if I'm still working there if/when they open the new store. I'm all about being promoted (again) asap. It's a decent job while I look for something better. *g*
Speaking of, Chicago...I *loved* it. Although the people behind me made me want to smack them a couple times, I absolutely loved the movie. Now I want to go to NYC and see the real thing. LOL But I don't have the money right now. Student loans have to be paid this coming week, and I have a very special birthday to plan for. So a trip to NYC will have to wait. Hell, at the rate I'm going, it won't be til at least mid to late April or May before I could consider it. Too much going on.
I'm becoming obsessive about my weight again, and not in a good way. At least I'm realizing it. It's mainly that I'm just weighing myself every other second. I'm not killing myself exercising or starving myself...both things I've done in the past.
I used to be told that I needed to lose weight or else I wouldn't get a job or find a steady relationship. Like no one could like me for the things on the inside. And that has stuck with me in the back of my head, even though I have both of those things in my life now. It's a huge insecurity issue, that goes hand-in-hand with my feelings of unworthiness. It makes me jealous and bitchy and then I end up pushing people away because they can't deal with it. And the people that I have in my life now, I would do anything for that to *not* happen with.
There needs to be a way to reprogram a brain. Just write a little program, hit a button and *poof*! LOL
Aside from my rambles, I'm in a great mood. Got a good night's sleep, spent the weekend catching up with friends that I haven't talked to much in awhile. I need to go through about a million tapes of SDB footage today to find a specific tape (I wish so much that I had marked these damn things) and get it ready to mail back to Tennessee. I will start that shortly...hopefully I can find it before Michelle calls me (if she calls me anyway).
Must go feed the critter now!
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Date: 2003-03-02 07:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-03-02 07:24 am (UTC)Yes, that was a bit disturbing, now that you mention it.
But, that aside, the movie is phenomenal. I might have to take myself out to see it again sometime soon. I need to get the soundtrack too. *makes mental note to hit the mall*